This lifestyle I am living now is breaking down all self-discipline. It has been 2 and a half years since I came out here, and what have I accomplished?
Woke up this morning, then promptly went back to sleep. I am sleeping too much. When I am not sleeping, I am sitting in front of this computer reading things and watching videos. There isn't much getting done here.
Therefore, I get up and try to watch more videos, but with a purpose. But that fails, too. All it did was to reinforce the feeling that I am not making any progress. The videos are too complex, and involve too much work, it seems.
An example was a solar cabin video. The guy's name is Lemar Alexander, from whom I bought some simple tiny house plans several years ago. Turns out that his plans are not going to work out there. Too windy. Anyway, I watched another one of his videos that seemed like it might be interesting, but it turns out to be too complex. He showed how to salvage appliances out of a trailer.
I really don't want to do that. If I foul up a working trailer, then I will not have the use of it anymore.
Better to enclose it instead. Basically, I just wasted my time watching the video. His wasn't the only one. There were others that I hoped would help me hone my skills somewhat. Maybe I got something out of it.
One thing I need to be careful about, and that is making the building square and level. If I fail at that, the building will be fouled up.
Is there any lesson learned here? Only that I don't ever seem to learn. I do the same things over and over again. This off-grid business really isn't any different from the other things that I have done all my life. Those things have not worked out. What will make this work, and therefore be different?
The day is not starting off well.
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